When It's Really Over. Glad I am Fine.

Okay...I dunno how strong penangan the Nur Kasih to me. I addicted you..
Last Friday, as Nur Kasih finished. I tried to finished-up the pending works.
During it, I was blissful caused berangan lah if I am Nur
Then, plup..plup..plup! I received call from ITU! and...here I go again.
Shaky and cold hands.
Then....W.T.F.ire??! ha ha ha
Okay la...congrate la for my ex. He's getting married on Friday.
Okay. Kite stop. Kite bukak cerita lain.

Then, on Saturday I started feel weirdo inside.
Tapi I tak KUAT!
Ikut parent pergi rumah orang kahwin.
Then, I let my mum know the above ITU news. (comments censored)
I pergi open house my ex-U.
Even I stucked in jam! Bayangkan dari Ampang ke UK 1 hour stucked! hishh..
Totally fully-loaded the stomach.
Owh perut..I am sorry. he he he.
Do my work a bit while I found Jepun serang I.
Then go home. Mandi-mandi. Makan ubat, then Tido!
(Penuh tak jadual I?)

On Sunday.
I woke up, early bit. Compared to the susah mau tido last night.
I asked Mak shopping. Since I didnt have any plan anyhow.
And for the sake I dont want to staying home plus with buzzing mind.
We went to Jln TAR.
Mak borong habes...!!!Orang nak Depavali, kami pun sibuk jugak..ha ha ha
Uish....gagah Mak daku.
We bought kain pasang, tudung, and the most important is the wannabe-pengantin keronsang!!!
Yahooooooo! at last!
Dan dalam hati mula terdetik...
"Sesungguhnya, Mak I sayang I. Dia amat memahami dan mengerti kiranya hati anak nya sedang berduka"
uish....boleh keluar air mata tau..
Isk...isk....isk....

Dan officially, I dah totally over it.
and FYI, the reason why I am staying single is, I am afraid to face the ugly in a relationship.
Even somehow I do feel, If I did react like sh*t before takkan I tak de react liked the beauty of flower before ek? Confused I.
Even I tau I was not a perfect lover. But at least I know how to say I love him/her and appreciate whatever he/she done for me.
ITU....this is for you. Thank you for giving me the best book which are the best experience ever guided me as a good teacher. U taught me real meaning which I called it as a life. Thank you.